A
STORY OF LOVE AND PASSION: BENEDETTA CARLINI
Extract
from the Record of the Investigation of Benedetta Carlini, c.1623
Sister
Benedetta Carlini said in one of her ecstasies that when Jesus took her heart,
she raised her sleeve up to mid-arm, and when he put the heart back he put it
through her side and made it go through between the skin and the flesh on her
chest until it arrived at its place, and it bulged out of her chest like a bread
roll as it went along. This is stated by two nuns, one of whom says she was
present and saw the heart when it was back in place up to one inch deep and saw
that bread-like bulge on her chest. And both confirm that when he came to return
the heart, he said that she should uncover herself and because she answered that
she was ashamed to, he added where I am there is no shame. This she said in
ecstasy.
One
of her angels said in one of her ecstasies that since God eternal had elected
her for his bride, when she was about to come up here [to the new monastery], he
commanded all the angels of the Pesciatines to scatter flowers on the streets
that she would pass and that they should welcome her, and that in ecstasy she
saw not only the flowers scattered on the streets, but also all the angels
bowing to her. Two nuns confirm what she said in ecstasy but they confess that
they did not see flowers on any of the streets.
She
said in ecstasy that God granted her the power to understand immediately what
people were about to say as soon as they even uttered the first word. He also
granted her the power to see into people's hearts. This was stated by only one
nun.
While
in ecstasy she revealed that the souls of some individuals had gone to paradise
and she named some. Two [nuns] say this. And the first nun adds that one of
these souls had received the right to be with her [Benedetta] always, and
speaking through Benedetta it lamented not having known or seen Benedetta when
it was alive.
She
further revealed while in ecstasy that some souls had gone to purgatory and she
specified the amount of time they had spent there before going to paradise. One
nun said this.
She
also said in ecstasy that she had received God's grace to help the souls that
were near death and that she had taken many out of purgatory. And one morning,
also in ecstasy, she showed how she took many from there, motioning with her
hands as if she were taking them and telling the angels that they should carry
them to paradise. She affirmed that she had received this privilege from God
because of her new heart and added that she gave her blessing to those souls who
had not finished their penance, and they felt great contentment and comfort from
this because on her hands she had the wounds of Jesus Christ.
On
the morning of St. John the Baptist, while in ecstasy, she assigned an angel to
each of the nuns, in addition to their guardian angels, telling them the names
and the order to which the angels belonged, all of which are written on a piece
of paper. And this is affirmed by all the nuns. Both she and her companion have
three angels each, as they themselves confess.
Benedetta's angels sermonized
for two Lents on the gospel of the Mass of the day while the other nuns
disciplined themselves. They exhorted the nuns to virtue and above all to
obedience, poverty, and chastity. All say this, and they confirm that her angels
call each other Signore and they are recognizable by the different dialects in
which they speak - one in her maternal tongue, one in Florentine dialect and one
in the dialect of Lucca.
She has been seen by two nuns
renewing her wounds at various times with a large needle, as they themselves
confess. And three other nuns state they have observed that her wounds sometimes
seem very small and almost dry and later, after she has locked herself in her
study for a while, they are fresh, as if they had been made recently.
Two nuns state that when she
has her hair washed no puncture marks are left, and that her head remains clean.
One of these nuns always does the washing and affirms that she has seen her
locked in her study in front of a mirror, taking blood from her wound with a
large needle and putting it on her head. And two nuns say they've observed that
there were no visible puncture marks on her head and no broken skin, except at
the start.
Three nuns report that she not
only walks, but runs through the house, as if there were nothing wrong with her
feet. One of these nuns once saw her jump down from a small table and heard her
say "Whoever saw me jump would say that there's nothing wrong with my feet."
Another nun, whose turn it was to wash the wounds on her feet, never saw them or
found any blood there.
Many times three nuns have
noticed that the two fingers continguous to the ring finger had the same colour
as the ring where the fingers touched. Many times the ring was faded in color so
that it was almost invisible and after she locked herself in her study for a
while, the color was bright. And one of these nuns, suspecting that she was
making the ring with saffron, looked around and finally found in her desk, a
small brass box containing some diluted saffron. Another nun observed that those
small stones that are on the ring in the form of a cross are sometimes broken
and sometimes whole so that she is suspicious, as was the other nun.
Almost all the nuns say they
have twice seen gold on the wounds on her hands, and particularly on the morning
of the resurrection, but two say that before [these events] she had locked
herself in her study for a while. One of these nuns added that while the others
were preparing themselves in the choir, Benedetta took some time to come down
and always kept her hands under her gown and did not take them out until after
receiving the sacraments. That gold was tinsel. Another nun saw in her study
thin golden sheets that were left over from when some things were guilded in the
choir.
Five nuns say they saw another
ring, a yellow one with a red stone, on the index finger of her right hand. But
one nun says that even the ring was red, and three others say that they saw
another ring that was all yellow and without a stone on her middle finger. And
two of these suspected that she herself made the ring with saffron and the stone
with blood from her wound . . .
Almost all the nuns say that
for a whole year while she was abbess, she spent the days at the grate talking
and laughing with a priest, which caused great scandal and wonder among the
laity and the nuns. And for this purpose she often left Vesper services. One nun
adds that during the course of the winter, she saw her at the small communion
window with that priest until three at night at least twice or three times a
week and they held and kissed each other's hands. And she did the same thing
many times at the door of the convent, while she stood straight and he was on
his knees. Another nun confirms having seen them at the small window three or
four times. And she was seen by a nun many times with another priest at the same
window. Once, when this nun was left there by force while Benedetta went to run
an errand this priest asked her to put out her hand and when she refused, he
started to put his inside but she closed the window on him just in time. Another
nun states that on another occasion, the first priest went up on the altar and
through the open grate that serves to see the holy sacrament when it is raised,
spied into the choir to see who was there. This nun closed the grate on his face
. . .
For two continuous years, two
or three times a week, in the evening, after disrobing and going to bed waiting
for her companion, who serves her, to disrobe also, she would force her into the
bed and kissing her as if she were a man she would stir on top of her so much
that both of them corrupted themselves because she held her by force sometimes
for one, sometimes for two, sometimes for three hours. And [she did these things]
during the most solemn hours, especially in the morning, at dawn. Pretending
that she had some need, she would call her, and taking her by force she sinned
with her as was said above. Benedetta, in order to have greater pleasure, put
her face between the other's breasts and kissed them, and wanted always to be
thus on her. And six or eight times, when the other nun did not want to sleep
with her in order to avoid sin, Benedetta went to find her in her bed and,
climbing on top, sinned with her by force. Also at that time, during the day,
pretending to be sick and showing that she had some need, she grabbed her
companion's hand by force, and putting it under herself, she would have her put
her finger in her genitals, and holding it there she stirred herself so much
that she corrupted herself. And she would kiss her and also by force would put
her own hand under her companion and her finger into her genitals and corrupted
her. And when the latter would flee, she would do the same with her own hands.
Many times she locked her companion in the study, and making her sit down in
front of her, by force she put her hands under her and corrupted her; she wanted
her companion to do the same to her, and while she was doing this she would kiss
her. She always appeared to be in a trance while doing this. Her angel,
Splenditello, did these things, appearing as a boy of eight or nine years of age.
This angel Splenditello through the mouth and hands of Benedetta, taught her
companion to read and write, making her be near her on her knees and kissing her
and putting her hands on her breasts. And the first time she made her learn all
the letters without forgetting them; the second, to read the whole side of a
page; the second day she made her take the small book of the Madonna and read
the words; and Benedetta's two other angels listened to the lesson and saw the
writing.
This Splenditello called her
his beloved; he asked her to swear to be his beloved always and promised that
after Benedetta's death he would always be with her and would make himself
visible. He said I want you to promise me not to confess these things that we do
together, I assure you that there is no sin in it; and while we did these things
he said many times: give yourself to me with all your heart and soul and then
let me do as I wish. Other times he said that if I were a man and always made
new promises.
The
same angel managed it so that neither Benedetta nor her companion did the usual
[spiritual] exercises that the nuns did prior to general confession. He made the
sign of the cross all over his companion's body after having committed many
immodest acts with her; [he also said] many words that she couldn't understand
and when she asked him why he was doing this, he said that he did this for her
own good. Jesus spoke to her companion [through Benedetta] three times, twice
before doing these dishonest things. The first time he said he wanted her to be
his bride and he was content that she give him her hand; and she did this
thinking it was Jesus. The second time it was in the choir at Forty Hours,
holding her hands together and telling her that he forgave her all her sins. The
third time it was after she was disturbed by these goings on, and he told her
that there was no sin involved whatsoever and that Benedetta while doing these
things had no awareness of them. All these deeds her companion confessed with
very great shame.
[Source:
Judith C. Brown, Immodest Acts: The Life of a Lesbian Nun in Renaissance Italy
(1986), pp. 158-64.
Reading
Brown,
Immodest Acts (1986), see above (parts of the `Introduction' to Brown's book are
reprinted as "Lesbian Sexuality in Medieval and Early Modern Europe",
in M. B. Duberman, M. Vicinus, and G. Chauncey Jr. (eds.), Hidden From History:
Reclaiming the Gay and Lesbian Past (Penguin books, 1991), 67-75).
The
documentary basis of Brown's book is challenged by Rudolph Bell, 'Renaissance
Sexuality and the Florentine Archive', Renaissance Quarterly 40 (1987), pp.
485-511, with a reply by Brown.
For
the broader background see:
Craig
Harline, The Burdens of Sister Margaret - Inside a Seventeenth-century Convent (abridged
edn, 2000)
Helmut
Puff, 'Female Sodomy: The Trial of Katherina Hetzeldorfer (1477), Journal of
Medieval and Early Modern Studies 30 (2000)
Valerie
Traub, "The (In)Significance of `Lesbian' Desire in Early Modern England",
in Jonathan Goldberg (ed.), Queering the Renaissance (1994), 62-83.
Lyndal
Roper, The Holy Household: Women and Morals in Reformation Augsburg (1989),
257-8.